Absolution

As painful as it was

As much as it ripped our hearts out

As much it was vulnerable

Ugly

Embarrassing

Shameful 

And hard

I've never felt closer to you

I've never been more willing to begin again

To try harder

To be committed 

To work through it

To be only yours.

I've never felt more in love

I've never felt more accepted and understood

I've never felt more able to tell you anything

And open up to you even at my darkest.

I've never valued you more

I've never treasured us more deeply.

I love you more than my mouth can say

I love you more than my arms can hold

I love you more than my mind can bear

I love you more than there are hours in the day.

I love you like there's no tomorrow, 

And I would walk through fire to show you how sorry I am.

We've been through darkness

We've been through Hell

We've bled and we've cried and we've screamed and we've broke each other's hearts

But we're here and we're trying and I'm not giving up.

This is a new day

This is a new promise

This is a new beginning

And I've never loved you more.